Blasting/ Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls feat. Taylor Swift

The war began today, 1st paper down, 10 more to go. Soon enough, it'll be over in a blink of an eye, the torture will end.

I can't wait for these 2 weeks to be over. It's just too taxing.

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing

Blasting/ Empty - Jessica Mauboy

[Verse 1]
You're just walking through the door and you're home late again
There you're acting strange and you won't tell me where you've been
You can look me in the eyes, imagine every alibi

Think you've got it made but boy, there's something you don't know
When you left your room, you shouldn't have forgot your phone
I just heard your messages, and this is where it ends

Been getting away with pretending so long
Boy you're at the point you don't know right from wrong
Never gonna change (You're feeling me, you're feeling me)
Hearing what I'm saying (You're feeling me, you're feeling me)
All I know is

[Chorus]
No I don't forgive ya, no tears left to cry
Door is shut, I give up, boy I'm empty
Gave you second chances, at least a hundred times
You're not the one, I'm done, in fact you offend me

I'm sick and tired of hearing from my friends that you've been lying
No reasons to stay but to leave, yeah, I got plenty
There's nothing left here for you in this empty heart of mine
You took all the love from the start now it's empty

[Verse 2]
You didn't even realize the hole that you're digging
When you're trying to tell me that she doesn't mean a thing
Suddenly all I can see, is what you think of me

And tryna' point the finger at me, I can't cope
That you did what you did, cause it's something I don't
You should be ashamed (You're feeling me, you're feeling me)
Trying to shift the blame (You're feeling me, you're feeling me)
Well all I know is
[Chorus x3]

Blasting/ That's When I Love You - Aslyn

Sometimes, some things in life ought to be let go so that you can really be happy. Sometimes, some things in life ought to be held on tightly, close to your heart, 'cause it's something so precious that you know you have to treasure it, losing it will only cause regret.

Will there be something that happens to be both of the above?

I've got to be strong, I can't fall now. It'll be a better day tomorrow when I wake up, and I'll be stronger than I ever imagine.

One day, the decision will have to made. But not now, when I'm not in the right state of mind. I should be focusing on what I should focus now, everything will be over really, really soon.

By the way, Ming's gonna go Taiwan for NS soon, I pray that he'll be safe and sound over there :)

This song is a very very old song, I know, but it's still awesome anyway.

P.S. I am meeting Pokey for dinner on Friday! Can't wait! :D

That's When I Love You - Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you, I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you, I love you, endlessly

And when you're mad 'cause you lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

[Chorus]
'cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
'cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love,
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you, no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
'cause the movie and made you cry
That's when I love you, I love you, a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you, I love you, more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
[Chorus]

That's when I love you
When nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you, when I love you
No matter what (no matter what)

Sudden cardiac arrest.

I've more or less grounded myself for close to a week. Imaginable? For someone like me who basically hates being locked at home - except for now it's my own decision to stay at home instead. To think there's about another 1 and half more weeks to go. Guess I really need to get out and breathe...

I know I worry unduly at times. Yet who can escape from the fear of disappointments? There's so much to work on, the concepts, the skills, the knowledge... Although I know giving me more time wouldn't much get me interested in stuff like GP and Econs either.

Sometimes I wished I was born earlier so that things will be much simpler compared to now and I seriously wonder, how the generations after us will have to cope with the future expectations.

The irony..

Blasting/ One Time - Justin Bieber

It's 1plus and I'm still wide awake.

Life's been pretty hard these days, struggling with the horrible flu when I need the energy to stay motivated and study hard. Serve me right for not taking care of myself amid the birthday celebrations, thankfully I'm much better now. Back to fight the war!

Been feeling cranky and these days felt like a roller coaster ride, probably due to the exam stress. Guess I've overestimated myself that I could handle stress well... I'm left with 15 days, I have to hang in there no matter what.

On a side note I am awfully disgusted by the superficiality. Pathetic whore.

Even though it's struggle love what we've got
For you, for us, I'm gonna make it to the mountain top

I am sick, down with sorethroat and flu. Damn it unlucky.

Had seafood treat at Geylang yesterday thanks to Boyfriend, Weishen, Clement, Shaun and Zixian. Impromptu decision to pub at Clarke Quay after that and tada I got myself sick. Argh.

Oh and randomly I wanna go Hongkong and Taiwan soooooooo much!

Blasting/ Straight Through My Heart - Backstreet Boys

18th birthday was celebrated over the weekend with much warmth and love from my closest people :)

Friday was graduation ceremony in school, took tons of photos with classmates, touch rugby mates, teachers... And I'm so sure that I'll miss them so, so much. Especially Chengweng. It's been a good 1 and a half years of classmates with him and though we hadn't been exactly close, it's kinda sad to see him feeling like this now... He might not see this but do stay strong kay Chengweng, we love you :)

Then it was dinner with family and ah ma at Yumcha which got me pretty pissed off 'cause the cheena waitress was horribly rude. Reached there at sucha awkward timing that we ended up eating dimsum for dinner since they only start their dinner menu at 6pm. Rushed home to prepare to meet Pokey up with the initial plan to go Rebel but me, obviously was kept in the dark for don't know how many weeks, end up finding myself being led to Timbre @ The Art House with all the familiar faces that each stood a very important place in my heart. Eil, YY, Pakmeng, Ming (that stupid NS man who lied to me about the confinement and unable to make it) and Dexter Koh! That irritating boyfriend who lied to me all these weeks, being the spy and all. It was so greatly planned that honestly, I was so touched that I just cried. For the first time of the birthday celebrations I've had, I was really, really surprised. Thanks loves, seriously. I had the most awesome 18th :)

Rebel to club after that with Pokey. This was really really horrible and yea laugh if you want, 'cause the bouncer actually laughed at my ez-link card and asked me, "Omg why did they use your primary school photo? So boyboy sia" before decently shook my hand to wish me happy birthday. How tragic (sighs) The music sucked but it's the companion that matters :) Hit the sack only at 6 in the morning and the plan to wake up early to play touch the next morning was apparently futile...

Saturday saw me waking up only at 1 in the afternoon still feeling tired and all. Stayed in, but no, I wasn't mugging, 'cause the other 2 of my loves came over to my place and whipped up a very very homely dinner specially for me. It tasted really awesome, I never knew they could cook so well HAHAHA. Impromptu decision to stayover at my place and it took us quite sometime to really settle down and sleep. Nat and I were craving for prata so badly but Qiao is so lazy to accompany us! Roar her.

Today was another planned surprise by boyfriend, simple and nice. He himself almost lost his way while bringing me to our first destination: Singapore Arts Museum! I've been wanting to go but there hasn't been really any free time and I had nobody to go with... Well anyway, SAM was cool, Singapore's history really fascinated me! Walked down the whole stretch of Orchard attempting to do some shopping after that but we were just talking and talking and talking... And we found ourselves at Jack's Place for dinner. Up next was Hendersons Waves! Another place that I've been wanting to go but didn't manage to... It's a nice place to chill, wanted to check out the Jewel Box there but lazy to climb up the hill, hahaha.

3 days gone without mugging, yet I feel so contented. Mugging mode tomorrow onwards and then seafood dinner with Weishen and the rest at Geylang at night. Temptation to club is so overwhelming but I'm gonna just control for these 3 weeks, go through another 3 weeks and I can indulge in all the 'sins' that are restricted at this moment. Just 3 more weeks for 8 months, I kept it a constant reminder that this is a damn worthy deal to make.

And to end off I really wanna thank all my loved ones who made my 18th such an awesome one: Boyfriend, Eil, YY, Pakmeng, Qiao, Nat, Ming and most important of all, Pokey, for the meticulous planning of the surprise and gathering of my closest ones :) thanks for everything, and thanks to those who remembered and wished :)

I'm a blessed girl who is loved by her closest friends whom she loves and treasures too :) Pictures not with me, will upload if I'm not lazy to someday. HEHE.

Happy belated birthday to me, and oh my god, I am freaking legal 18th! :D

No I can't resist, and I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
It's straight through my heart